Fai D. Flourite

Matt,

So when're we gonna get this out on the table and talk it over? Promise I won't jerk your leg around, OK?

- Rick

"Well," the Head Doctor began his announcement, sounding pleasantly surprised, "I knew today might bring us some notable improvement in patients, but I had no idea that it would be such a widespread phenomenon! Let me be the first to say that I, like all the rest of our staff here at Landel's, are so proud of how far you've come. We hope with all our hearts that the good behavior continues – along with the sincere motivation behind it – and that we can continue to help you all toward a full and permanent recovery.

"In the meantime, however, I'm afraid we have to go on with our normal routine! Today, everyone will be going to the library to peruse some works in our large collection – and remember, any defacing is strictly prohibited and will be punished! You may, however, borrow a book if you are sure to check it out through one of our nurses.

"I believe that is all for now! Again, I would like to express my joy for all the progress that has been made today and that I am sure will be made in the future. I'll speak to you again soon!"

The intercom clicked off.

DAY 45

I. 1st shift, breakfast: He considered for the briefest while whether this was some sort of code, but he quickly dismissed that thought.

[his writing is still clear and legible for the most part]

It's strange looking back on the time I've spent here. It's hard to tell reality from the fantasy sometimes... I know that a lot of what I remember didn't happen, but it's harder to determine what did happen. How much of it was just outright hallucinations and how much of it was real? Surely parts of it must have been real somewhere, to help provide a basis for my fantasies, I don't know.

I always hate this feeling. I don't like thinking too hard about this kind of stuff. At least before I didn't have too many problems telling what happened to ZEX and what happened to me, but now... it's weird. I mean, I know that me and ZEX were sort of connected, in a way, but... I mean, he's on his own planet and everything. He shouldn't be me, not when I'm awake.

And... he's not real, as Dex would tell me if he were here. I wonder if I can call Dex or something now? Let him know I've woken up and can go home. I want to get out of here, there's... I don't know, something about this place makes me uneasy. I mean, even if I was hallucinating during the past... Jesus, the past month, I was still hallucinating some pretty scary stuff. There's a reason for that, right?

Well, maybe not... Dex would know, I guess.

God, I can remember when he came to visit me the first time. Like I didn't even recognize him... I must have been really crazy to just... forget him like that.

Well... I didn't forget him exactly. Just... rewrote him. Like with everyone.

Like Caleb... I hope he's okay. I know I cared about him, but I didn't think I was so obsessed that I'd rather have him eaten by zombies than released. I know ZEX was obsessed with him, but that seems a little... violent. Not to mention ridiculous. I've always had an overactive imagination (another five dollars to Dex) but the things ZEX saw... I was really just totally insane, wasn't I? None of it was real, not really. Just like ZEX himself isn't real... at least, not here.

It's just me now, I guess.

Dex said they covered everything up... I hope so. If Caleb got released, then hopefully he's okay now. And if I'm still here, then I guess he hasn't tried to press charges against me. Dex is probably right... I probably can't see him again.

[a few taps of his pen]

He was so nice to me here... and our delusions lined up so perfectly at points. I guess we were just encouraging each other. I really didn't mean to hurt him... at least he forgave me. Maybe him getting released helped me wake up...

I can... sort of remember the two of us... together, but I don't think that really happened. The nurses would never have let us do something like that. It seems awfully real though. Probably says something about me...

I bet a lot of the things I imagined while I've been here say a lot about me. I'm not a psychiatrist and I don't really like this introspective business. I don't really know what it means, and I don't even really want to think about it either. It's just going to be depressing, I bet. I mean, even if I did dream up me being
even if I did say
even if I kept flir

it doesn't mean anything. I was crazy, right? I mean, there's no other explanation for it. Otherwise ghosts and monsters and different dimensions exist and I'm not stupid.
Well, I don't think I'm stupid.

How many people did I...
There was Caleb, and Teesel, and Xigbar, and Wally, and Xellos, almost...
No women...

Well, it doesn't mean anything. Crazy people do things that don't mean anything all the time. There's no use in thinking about it. I mean...

It's weird to read back into this journal and think about some of the things I said and did. I was acting so strangely when I was gone. I've lost a lot of weight here because I refused to eat! How crazy do you have to be for that to happen to you?

Maybe whatever they did to my head made me wake up, I don't know. It's hard to say. I wish I could just get some answers. Everytime I think about that dream... it makes me nervous whenever the nurses come near me.

If Dex were here I bet things would be a lot different. It's too bad he's not visiting today so I can talk to him. I should ask the nurses if maybe I can call him or something. He'd probably just tell me to stay put and listen to the doctors though. How boring.

I acted so differently when I was ZEX... I was so forward, but I wasn't afrai

Thinking about this stuff is just going to get me depressed. I should probably stop.


[in faint, hesitant writing]
I wonder... should I tell the nurses I'm still seeing things? Little things, just every now and then? It's not major, but it's not like what I saw before...
Maybe I shouldn't...

I'm going to be on hiatus for the next 36 hours or so, because I'm going on a trip to a farm-type thing with a bunch of people, and thus will spend all my time getting drunk and stomping around in the woods instead of on the Internet. Also I don't want to carry my laptop up there, and I doubt there's Internet access anyway. So. Yeah. SORRY GIEZ.

~Sonya (Suzaku-mun)

Hey all! Serey's at PMX and can't get internet, so she's going to be on hiatus until Sunday night. She thinks she might be able to get a little bit of posting done on Saturday, but it's very iffy. This affects byname_bynature, guardiancomplex, osakapwnzu, sewenteen_sir, and fuzzy_diablo.

Harley, are you still [inkblot] Harley?

- Sheena

Harley,

Sorry we weren't able to meet last night. My room number got changed.

[small drawing of a frowny face]

Anyway, how about tonight? I'm sure Bucky's getting pretty bored hanging around with you~

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[Bawww~ post and replies have been removed]

S&R group:

Roll call, if you please.

Any who wish to join may also apply here. We help individuals who are in need of assistance, especially those who experience vivid delusions after nightfall. Any applicants who wish to learn more may wish to meet me or another current group member in person.

Also, to those among the patients who have medical experience: Where will you be meeting this evening? Things might be busy around the start of the night shift.

[First note, in a language called "Siaru"]

Can anyone understand me when I write in this language?


[Second note on a separate piece of paper below]

Alvin

Are you Are we still talking today during the second shift?

Kvothe

Hey, I know this is kind of a vague question, but what do you do if a close friend a family member a friend does something really bad that you never thought they would do? Or something that seems bad but you're not entirely sure is bad?

[Recluse has written the same message in French, Italian, German, Latin, Greek, Ancient Greek, and Decepticon coding, with a small preface in English, scattered across the board.]

Just something for all those who might not be native English speakers, or would like to practice. It can be awfully lonely or boring here without exercising your linguistic skills. I'd encourage others who know other languages that I do not to post something themselves and see if you can find anyone to converse with.

[English ends here]

Let's see if this message gets taken down.

So far, I've found thirteen fourteen different individuals who believe that they were delusional up until this morning. We can't know if this is permanent yet, but it certainly makes matters far more serious. Among other problems, they may deny the existence of approaching hostile creatures, if they manage to blunder their way out of their rooms after nightfall.

Search and Rescue will therefore still be operating, and we may need extra help.

E-

Are you feeling better?




Alkaid-

Is everything all right?

I responded to the nurse comment, but not sure if that was noticed. =P In regards to the binary post, was that the entire thing or just the second part?

Thanks, guys.~ I know I'm really annoying about details. XD

HELLO How is everyone? I hope you're all good. But anyway:

I have no idea why, but Claude just started attacking Sync for no good reason, so Jansen and I would really appreciate it if a nurse came by over here and straightened that troublemaker out.

Please and thank you! +_+ &hearts

-Brenda, Sync-mun.

( Binary test )

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